5.7.07

OKAY
i must admit i really suck at handling this specific kind of relationship.
i apologise for the wrong timings and lack of assumptions.
i will definitly grow to be smarter and more sensitive.
I AM SORRY.
i am quite fed up with myself for letting things come to this state. i feel equally stupid awful and foolish.
although i have things to say, i must admit in this entire thing, i own the fault.
I shall now proclaim my stand right before anyone thinks anything:
1) i treat all guys and gals as friends, which ALL i wanna know better
2) i do not shy away from contact with guys/girls unless i feel uncomfortable. such contact, physical or verbal, should be assumed as normal buddy interaction.
3) i do not basically care about rumours or gossips due to lack of understanding of pt 2. i will continue! do not infer from this continuation that silence means agreement. i just cannot be bothered to address to the entire world, and i assume you know it too.
4) if unable to safely infer the type of relationship between me and you, you can either ask me, or simply assume 'just friends'.
5) more failed relationships only makes me more difficult to have one so i treasure each and every relationship. no assumption should be made based on this that any relationship is especially impt to me. unless i say so.
6) i do not shy away from contact even when a guy friend states he likes me or talks anything that hints so. if he states, i will clarify my stand. if not, i view our relationship as 'friends/good friends/best friends', as before but thats that. again, i assume the other party knows this. i am not that kind who forsakes relationships in order for clarity. because i am never the one confused. if the other party is unsure or confused, it is his job to initiate to address with me.

7) after stating the above, at no point of time should any confusion regarding status of relationship be attributed as a fault of mine.
8) the above is not targeting at anyone, any issues, or any objects. it is what i have basically wanted to scream, but have no chance to. it is a shout-out TO ALL.
9) the above is set up because of my dislike/fear for consequential incidents to happen. if any points above confuses anyone, please address. if any points above is disagreed upon or disliked, it is definitly your personal problem and do refrain from addressing with me.
10) the above is set because i know i suck at this specific type of relationship. precisely because i suck at it, it ought not be surprising if any pts prove to be contradictory to my actions/words/other points.

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me

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new back-to-school bag
get a haircut
clean room
hang up puzzle
clothes!
completing the modules quite well
find a dance partner/ new cca
practise on the piano
lose weight
find an interest in music or dance